Last night I had a dream that I was trying to find my dad. I was thinking about buying a car or borrowing my mom's car to drive and go see him. It felt like I haven't seen him in forever. I had a feeling of sadness in the middle of my chest and missing him and I wanted to hurry up and go see him. I was thinking of asking my grandma chmielewski where he was and stopping at her house. I always have dreams of looking for my dad and not being able to find him. At one point I was in KY grandma's garage and looked at the wall and there was multiple plates or plaques of carousel horses and there were 3 that in my mind were the most "important" at another point I was at an Italian restaurant and I was going to order a pizza and a beef brisket and bring my dad the brisket for dinner. The whole dream I missed my dad and was wondering where he was. At another point there were these really weird/kinda gross stuffed animals that had live like grub inside and it was squirming and moving. I may have dreamt that because when I was a kid my dad used to buy me Mexican jumping beans and my dad would always tell me there was a worm inside.... ialways that that was interesting. Anyway after the dream I woke up and missed my dad even more realizing he is dead in real life and I will never see him again
Based on the details you provided, it seems that your dream reflects your deep longing and sadness for your father. The dream symbolizes your desire to reconnect with him and the frustration of not being able to find him. The act of trying to find your dad by buying or borrowing a car represents your effort and determination to connect with him, even though it feels like a long time since you last saw him. The feeling of sadness in your chest indicates the emotional pain associated with missing him.
The mention of your grandmother's house and the plates or plaques of carousel horses may represent a sense of nostalgia and cherished memories related to your dad. These specific plates or plaques could symbolize certain significant and cherished memories or aspects of your relationship with your father.
The scene in the Italian restaurant, where you plan to order a pizza and bring your dad a beef brisket, may symbolize your longing to share meals with him and spend quality time together. It signifies your desire for his presence in your life and the desire to recreate those moments.
The appearance of the weird and somewhat gross stuffed animals with live grubs inside may stem from a childhood memory of your father buying you Mexican jumping beans. It could represent a mix of fascination, curiosity, and the uniqueness of your relationship with your dad.
Overall, your dream reflects your yearning for your father's presence and the grief and acceptance that come with the realization that he is no longer living. It is completely natural to miss and long for your loved ones, especially after such a vivid dream.